I'm Not A Stable Person

I know that, alright? I know that I flip-flop and that my emotions are like a roller coaster. One minute I absolutely love a person and the next I can't stand them. That's just a part of who I am. I don't have the best people skills. I know that, too. I struggle to be nice and not be horrible. And a lot of the time, I succeed.

Do not call me a bitch, because the only way I know how to protect or defend myself is by being "abrasive." I'm not required to be nice all the time.

I do bounce around like a rubber ball in a rubber room (would that actually work?). I don't know why, just that I do. I know that I can go MONTHS at a time and do nothing but cry. I know that I can go quite a while normal and happy. And I know that there are times, I go nuts. I do crazy things and I can't control myself.

I can't help it.

Not without drugging myself up. I'm happier being a bouncy ball, k thx.