Obsess Much?

I'm a very obsessive person.

I obsess over things I've said or want to say until the point that I've made myself sick.

I've also struggled with the obsession over weight. I'm terrified of getting "fat".

I obsess over grades.

I obsess over shows. I put my all into them, but that means that I pretty much eat, drink, and sleep the show.

I think what I obsess over the most would have to be what "the other women" had that I didn't. I go through the list multiple times daily, trying to figure out what was so flawed that my ex had to run to other women. The ironic thing: I haven't found it yet. It doesn't help the obsession.