Dear 2009

Dear 2009,
We’ve had some great times, haven’t we? Well, some rough ones too. It seems we’ve survived thus far. I’ve worn your security like a warm cloak, used you to cushion my fall. You’ve been with me, close to me, for so long. You were there to pick me up after 2008 left me shattered on the pavement where she dropped me. You were there, helping me nurse my wounds and pick up the pieces. You did all you could to keep me from hurting myself with the shards of a past life. You pulled me from the wreckage and helped me regain my footing. You were there to catch me in case I fell as I began to relearn how to walk alone.
You and I struggled at times, when things go really hard and I wanted to run back to ‘08 and the person I was with her. But you never let me. You held onto me, even when I fought my hardest. And when things got to be too much for me, you wrapped yourself around me and promised better tomorrows.
But more importantly, you helped me rediscover myself. You held my hand until I was able to walk alone. You taught me independence and how to love myself. For that I will be eternally grateful. You changed me.
Yet, no matter how great we are together, I feel that our time together must end. It’s not you and you must never think that. It’s me. I just need more. I’m not scared anymore and it’s thanks to you. However, my lack of fear and my newfound independence mean that I no longer need to be taken care of. I’m finally strong enough to hold my own.
I fear that I must tell you something, lest you hear it from somebody else. I’ve found someone else, a new year. He’s able to offer me a new beginning, something you are unable to give. He’s offering me the unknown and adventure. It’s something I just can’t pass up, but you knew that, didn’t you?
Please don’t think this has anything to do with you. I will always be grateful for everything we have shared. You will always have a special place in my heart and in me memory.
Love,
Me